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Saturday, November 19, 2011

Perfect Ending....

Life tends to be stressful. So before it dominates me, I think of my own potential. I step back to have a clearer view of the pain and I plan. At the end of the day, I know that the only person who could help myself is me. So when frustrations bother me, I remind myself the important things others tend to forget at tough times, and I’m sharing it with you.I know that you're reading this and I am writing this for you too.

I understand that life is never easy. Everyday is always unpredictable, everything can happen. There are moments that I am struggling to put a smile because of  so much pain this journey is causing me. But, whenever I encounter such misfortune, I always think that I am not alone.  No matter how bizarre or embarrassed or pathetic I feel about my own situation, there will be others out there experiencing the same emotions.  When I hear myself say “I am all alone,” it is my mind trying to sell me a lie so I will continue to feel sorry for myself. Nobody has it easy.  I never know what people are going through.  Every one of us has issues.  Sometimes it’s easy to feel like I’m the only one in the world who’s struggling, who’s frustrated, or unsatisfied, or barely getting by.  But that feeling is a lie.So I don’t belittle myself or anyone else.  Everybody is fighting their own unique war. So I Just hold on. I have all everything I could to make it better. I know that it won’t always be this way.

I am holding back my tears and keep on believing that I am strong so I will not cry. But every time I keep a tear from flowing, I am just adding up a pain into my heart. I've been through this multiple times and I realised, It’s ok to cry. Crying doesn’t indicate that  I am weak.  Since birth, it has always been a sign that I am alive and full of potential. I acknowledge my tears; I let it all go. I don’t dwell on it for too long because I might not notice life’s surprises. When I spend time worrying, I am simply using my imagination to create things I don’t want .Right now is life. So, I Live it. If I wake up in the morning with the thought that something wonderful will happen in my life today, and I pay close attention, I’ll often find that I am right. I tear down any emotional brick walls I have built around me and feel every exquisite emotion, both good and bad.  This is real life.  This is how I welcome new opportunities.

Some of the pain is caused by people around me. Several times I keep on ignoring them, I Don't give in. When other people treat me poorly, I keep being myself. I don’t ever let someone else' bitterness change the person I am. I give up worrying about what others think of me.  What they think isn’t important.  What is important is how I feel about myself.  I spend more time with those who make me smile and less time with those who I feel pressured to impress. After all, No matter how cautiously I choose my words, someone will always twist them around and misinterpret what I say.  So I just say what I need to say. I always remember that the best revenge is happiness, because nothing drives my adversaries more insane than seeing me smile. I Never let them know that they got me.I don’t care so I ignore them. I hold my head up high and pretend all their negative remarks don’t even phase me, and someday they actually won’t.

Sometimes I accidentally allow small problems to escalate and dominate my life. There will always be small issues that irritate me. From overcharged few cents to unsatisfying customer service, slow traffic, annoying passengers, impatient SSS employees, corrupt officials to the simplest issue...irritate me and ruin my day, and everyone else'. There will always be small issues that irritate me; the secret is to be able  to give them the miniscule level of importance they deserve. Life is 10% what happens to me and 90% how I react to it. The key is, If it’s out of my control, why fret about it?  Concentrating on things I can control is how I make good things happen.

I see young people go to exclusive universities, teens who drive their own cars, friends in Starbucks, others in condo apartments -the list is long. These people have worry and care free lives. And I look at myself , I have nothing. Most of the time, I want to feel rich so I just count all the great things I have that money can't buy. Life is filled with simple pleasures, the little satisfying effects I never really anticipate, but always take great pleasure in.  They are the gifts of lif e that we each subconsciously celebrate in our own unique way. My family and the love we share  is my wealth, its value is more than the most precious gem. 

All these and more, I finally realised that in this journey, everyone wants a perfect ending.  But over the years I’ve learned that some of the best poems don’t rhyme, and many great stories don’t have a clear beginning, middle, or end.  Life is about not knowing, embracing change, and taking a moment and making the best of it without knowing what’s going to happen next. I enjoy life surprises, no matter how small. I will keep living because tough times never last. Courage doesn’t always roar aloud.  Sometimes it’s the quiet voice at the end of the day whispering, “I will try again tomorrow.”  So I will stand strong. My father once said, "Things turn out best for people who make the best out of the way things turn out". So I will always keep my best.

And I am committed to making the best of it along with YOU.